This is where I’m exactly supposed to be
Nowhere close to perfect is how you may see me
Thank God it’s not up to you
If I left it up to you to make that call; you would keep me burning in hell
If I left it up to them I’d still be angry at the outer circle
Continuously fighting a battle whose only purpose is to grow
I know you have been unable to tell
That I’m really not who I say I am
It took me some time to recognize what was happening to me:
I was transforming into the one He always knew me to be.
Original sin is over for me
It finally came to me whom had been carrying me.
I learned and agreed with His plan during our first conversation at the age of ten.
Confused as hell is how my quiet times were spent in the years to come
Yet I kept moving as agreed during that first conversation.
Took every step meant for me.
The whore, the housewife, believe it, all me.
All that time the One I’d known since the beginning had been looking for me.
When He saw me on the floor I was crooked in chains unable to run anymore.
He didn’t care where I’d been.
He would pay any price just for me.
What about His life for my life?
Oh, that’s paid in full.
I saw the One who had removed the chains and made my crooked body straight.
My body was becoming His vessel and I was able to meet me again.
The hustle is over!
Exactly as He promised,
Mind, body and spirit aligned at the end.
I opened His gift and how beautiful it was;
To have square one given back to me
Perfectly, perfected, perfection
Just as I thought it would be.